tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10729698262810213322024-02-07T09:04:01.706-08:00"It's hard to be me" - parenting and loving our gender fluid/transgender teenThis is about the journey we are on raising and loving a gender fluid/transgender child - Cory. We collectively share his story to support other parents and children on this courageous journey with us.nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.comBlogger78125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-7465235226244813512016-08-27T01:42:00.000-07:002016-08-27T01:42:03.135-07:00Update - Part 1One of the things I have learned on this journey, is that writing about your child, especially one going through a harder than average existence is hard. What is harder is telling their story as a teen. Thus the break. As many of you know the suicide rate for transgender youth is alarmingly high. I have felt for the past 5 years like I am holding my breath...afraid to breath, to look away for a moment, for fear of the worst. We have had some very very dark days and I'm sure there will be more to come, but I feel now we have navigated the path into adulthood and our family is grounded, well and more and more healthy each day.<br />
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Cory is now 19 and doing amazing! I am a proud grateful mom.<br />
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He has graduated high school. Is in recovery from addiction, having successfully completed an in patient treatment program after three attempts. Has navigated heartbreak and depression. And now has his first job, and just got another job where he gets to talk about hockey.<br />
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I am bursting with pride and eager to start telling his story again. Hopefully he will join in too.<br />
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<br />nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-84625017718071126632014-09-25T02:09:00.001-07:002014-09-25T02:09:14.470-07:00Vancouver pride legacy award nominationA mom gets to brag right?<div><br></div><div><br></div><div><a href="http://vancouverpride.ca/cory-oskam-achievement-in-lgbtq-sports-award-nominee/">http://vancouverpride.ca/cory-oskam-achievement-in-lgbtq-sports-award-nominee/</a><br><div><br></div></div>nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-79913642460827046412014-09-25T02:04:00.001-07:002014-09-25T02:04:54.557-07:00Cory video<a href="http://vimeo.com/m/64751285">http://vimeo.com/m/64751285</a><div><br></div>nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-63821792967617906342014-09-23T22:18:00.001-07:002014-09-23T22:19:18.581-07:00My handsome kid<br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwbKGeXAt0wBNi2RyD-iJCrLVhh9lhs_kMwLC15L5Giobs5DGkgpx7K4guq5Ip9_nzfJoZ0aDPFQ5DmTXQeB9GtgR3w9RNncd5H8Ez77ylFEJvKS2iXPLcbhHAhPLJcs34YAVNGNimHcE/s640/blogger-image-959185045.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwbKGeXAt0wBNi2RyD-iJCrLVhh9lhs_kMwLC15L5Giobs5DGkgpx7K4guq5Ip9_nzfJoZ0aDPFQ5DmTXQeB9GtgR3w9RNncd5H8Ez77ylFEJvKS2iXPLcbhHAhPLJcs34YAVNGNimHcE/s640/blogger-image-959185045.jpg"></a></div><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjQsndj8-__iHaV2aJdeEf1cRHt85FARnR1ggPOKq0sMkLZKY2lOTn2p40tGllBBcDYZqP_MAK9b1b_tDD8TPhFn5U2Kixtbn1L2omZZFBUjHE_PEH9uN6Sg97y908coOIc4YYchAtOaA/s640/blogger-image-161360042.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjQsndj8-__iHaV2aJdeEf1cRHt85FARnR1ggPOKq0sMkLZKY2lOTn2p40tGllBBcDYZqP_MAK9b1b_tDD8TPhFn5U2Kixtbn1L2omZZFBUjHE_PEH9uN6Sg97y908coOIc4YYchAtOaA/s640/blogger-image-161360042.jpg"></a></div>nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-78475893653920472062014-09-23T20:58:00.000-07:002014-09-23T21:14:12.902-07:00Aaaaand......we're back!!!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Well, its been a long time since I posted, and for that I apologize. One thing I have learned in our travels in the past few years is that parenting a teenager (or two) is challenging....parenting a trans teen is more than just challenging...it can be exciting, terrifying and joyous all in one. It can also be private and personal, and blogging about your teenagers' journey through dating, sex, heartbreak and hormones seems too personal. Now that Cory is 17, turning 18 in January, we decided to start again, and tell you more about his journey.<br />
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For those of you who have not have the honour of meeting my incredible son, Cory is mature beyond his years, kind, political, articulate, smart and still a damn good hockey player. He has become a fierce advocate for transgender and gender non-conforming young people, speaking at conferences and become an integral educator within the Vancouver School Board. He has attended the Nike LGBT sports summit for the past two years trying to affect positive change for LGBT athletes across North America. Like other super hero's he still has his day to day life of high school, hockey and hanging out with friends.<br />
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Cory's dad and I have split up and he has moved back to his home in Holland, we moved into a cute house in East Vancouver near his still amazing high school; his sister Molly is now 13, looking 17 and started high school this week. We are all happy, healthy and thriving. We laugh every day and the trials and tribulations of our unique family. We joke that someone should do a reality show about us....lucky you, if you read this blog, you are witness to our crazy reality.nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-18165097943951884232013-05-18T20:05:00.001-07:002013-05-18T20:05:33.483-07:00My star Coryhttp://bc.ctvnews.ca/mobile/vancouver-takes-a-stand-against-homophobia-1.1286923nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-33093341449773005782013-05-12T22:57:00.001-07:002013-05-12T22:57:50.000-07:00My Amazing Coryhttp://vimeo.com/m/64751285nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-52254036874461210562013-02-05T14:23:00.001-08:002013-02-05T14:23:19.711-08:00Cory's TV debutI'm so proud of Cory. He was asked by Breakfast Television to come on with Dr. Metzger and myself to discuss his transition. He continues to impress me with how brave and articulate his is. <br />
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http://video.citytv.com/video/detail/2142109533001.000000/jody-talks-with-cory-oskam/nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-67289189736266610162013-02-01T00:53:00.001-08:002013-02-01T00:53:36.214-08:00Gender 101<div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsbKLUzI6vmy50xJbD8QaHqL-Pr2ej3wDAKm3iicLJAfD7HzwMuuCGnOoLL12p24PrHXtXUYZ5SkFldRA4TLhLyNwSya9rnoYFzM7LeQH_khiQw-7EmPoqRYbTlwjm0aSv967uOmOhoQQ/s640/blogger-image-111754858.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsbKLUzI6vmy50xJbD8QaHqL-Pr2ej3wDAKm3iicLJAfD7HzwMuuCGnOoLL12p24PrHXtXUYZ5SkFldRA4TLhLyNwSya9rnoYFzM7LeQH_khiQw-7EmPoqRYbTlwjm0aSv967uOmOhoQQ/s640/blogger-image-111754858.jpg" /></a></div>nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-80877593136605514352013-01-30T12:45:00.001-08:002013-01-31T00:54:41.099-08:00It never hurts to askAs most of you know there has been an NHL lockout until recently. This has meant no professional hockey for the first half of the season. <br />
When I heard that hockey was back so close to Cory's 16th birthday I had an idea.<br />
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What if Cory could be one of those kids that gets to skate on the ice with the players at the beginning of the game? <br />
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It's usually a much younger player and I have often coo'ed at how cute the teeny goalie is standing next to the pro. I never really thought it could be Cory. I figured there was an officially process for that player to be selected, but with folks not knowing if a season would even happen.....maybe....<br />
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It never hurts to ask.<br />
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So I called the Vancouver Canucks. For those who don't know, Cory chose his name as a shoutout to his favourite player, Cory Schneider. Starting this season Cory Scneider is the starting goaltender for the Canucks. How great would that be?!?<br />
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I left a long, disjointed message with the community relations person for the Canucks. I did not mention Cory was trans. I mentioned that he had tickets to the game on his 16th birthday and that he was an East side kid that loved Cory Schneider. Rod, the poor soul, who got my rambly mom message, wrote down the info, took interest and lost the information. <br />
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The Canucks are deeply committed and connected to their fans and their community....he tracked us down by calling the school. How great is that?!? I also persisted by calling the Canucks again. The first time the protective receptionist would not put me through, as my request was not a priority. Never mess with a mom on a mission. I called back and convinced another reception staff to put me through.<br />
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Speaking with Rod I got to tell him about Cory and his transition from female to male, from girls hockey to boys. There was, as there often is, a pregnant pause. Then he said "that's amazing! What a great story? So would Cory like to come on the ice on Wednesday?"<br />
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Is rain wet? Yes! Yes! Yes!<br />
Best birthday present ever!!! <br />
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nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-24497745302222241062013-01-29T21:59:00.001-08:002013-01-29T21:59:21.327-08:00My amazing kid!!!http://canucks.nhl.com/club/news.htm?id=653098nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-37441526852690621152013-01-18T13:53:00.001-08:002013-01-18T13:53:43.431-08:00PhewThis is good news. The body scanners have made travel a stressful event for Cory and I. While kids are exempt generally, it requires having a disclosure filled conversation in front of airport staff and passengers. <br />
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http://thinkprogress.org/lgbt/2013/01/18/1471481/victory-for-transgender-privacy-tsa-abandons-nude-body-scanners/nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-30392200610697971772013-01-18T13:46:00.001-08:002013-01-18T13:50:20.551-08:00Before becoming CoryThis is Cory in one of the only school pictures we have with a more female appearance. Cory passes so completely now he carries this picture on his phone just to prove to people he was once 'female'.<br />
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Over the past few months or so, Cory himself has said several times, "we should blog about this!"<br />
The stories are funny, sad, and sometimes angering. <br />
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I am very happy to report, we are planning to begin to blog more regularly about Cory's journey, and my journey being his mom. One comment I got a while back, pointed out the I am "nothing special" being the mom of a trans-teen. To be clear, I don't claim to be a 'special' or above-average mom.<br />
Cory would be the first to tell you, I am uniquely flawed as a mom. <br />
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Where I do not falter however, is in how much I love and admire my child. He is a brave, wonderful kid, deserving of kudos - not me. Over the past year, he has not only transitioned into a strong, confident young man, he has become a trans activist and a mentor to many other trans, gender-fluid, and gender questioning kids in our community. I can't wait to tell you all more about him and his journey.nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-20666880918915254222012-09-03T21:48:00.001-07:002012-09-03T21:48:40.966-07:00Sanfran this yearCory, Molly and I at the Golden Gate Bridge after the Gender Spectrum Families Conference<div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgahSUH78MT-MPN21RQBOJ1Actc8P63MEB8haBX-c924k54OY4izJ9HJcoDxtyM6AtYLSJzxi7_cJQ5smLEr_4e0xGGtgYYbTLvQ7_eq3U2PelGxMCfCYuu87HhywLIIYX1HSMCm90O6i0/s640/blogger-image--1139195848.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgahSUH78MT-MPN21RQBOJ1Actc8P63MEB8haBX-c924k54OY4izJ9HJcoDxtyM6AtYLSJzxi7_cJQ5smLEr_4e0xGGtgYYbTLvQ7_eq3U2PelGxMCfCYuu87HhywLIIYX1HSMCm90O6i0/s640/blogger-image--1139195848.jpg" /></a></div>nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-69407601443966994912012-09-03T18:09:00.001-07:002012-09-03T18:10:26.539-07:00Back to School!First so sorry to any regular readers for the long break. It's very hard to know what is ok and not ok to share in the life of a 15 year old transgendered boy. As the summer past however Cory often would laugh at our unique situations and say 'mom, you should blog about this." <br />
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So here we go....lots to report! <br />
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Tomorrow is the first day of school here in Vancouver. It's the first September Cory will be starting school as Cory and as a boy in the Hockey Academy near our house. He unfortunately has a concussion from taking a puck to the head last week, but luckily it's not severe. <br />
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After much adjustment last year the boys (and girls) in the Hockey Academy accept him as one of the guys. Do I still hold my breath a bit every time he goes to school? <br />
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Yes.<br />
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Do I still worry about depression, bullying, dating, hormones, and about 100 other unique things parents of gender variant kids worry about? <br />
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Yes. <br />
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What I take comfort in is what a great mature brave son I have. And then I try to breathe.<div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPgvU4pTA468qoNnm2_OxFHIGL0uObxhmpAi44QIjMs4hPIr4BUx9iQXSMk2Jh2UwJirDM5O8233f7suNe9O1lFSfG9rPRQtH-UGFONPwa2bPo3arsWeZio_qLLQDYnZLHh2xc0tryElE/s640/blogger-image-588484417.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPgvU4pTA468qoNnm2_OxFHIGL0uObxhmpAi44QIjMs4hPIr4BUx9iQXSMk2Jh2UwJirDM5O8233f7suNe9O1lFSfG9rPRQtH-UGFONPwa2bPo3arsWeZio_qLLQDYnZLHh2xc0tryElE/s640/blogger-image-588484417.jpg" /></a></div>nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-21158629391275756222012-03-31T23:05:00.001-07:002012-03-31T23:06:25.208-07:00New Pads for CoryCory is a hockey fanatic, both as a player and a fan. He even chose the name of his favourite player - Cory Schneider.<br />
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Firstly there were those in his electives with little to no history with Anneke who were shocked to learn she was even nattally female. "that's a girl?!? I thought he was a guy." Well then you can just keep thinking that. Long live the blockers that have kept female puberty at bay. <br />
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Next were that friends that already knew. "yup. We know." no shock here.<br />
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The hockey academy was a different kettle if fish. After all, the girls were being told they had been dressing (and undressing) with a guy in the room basically, and the guys were going to have another guy join them in their locker room whom they had always known to be female.<br />
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As 14 year old boys are prone to do, jokes were made about this. Jokes to no doubt guise their insecurity and discomfort.<br />
"what's he gonna do, wear a strap-on in the locker room?"<br />
Now most parents have envisioned and somewhat prepared for the birds and bees/where do babies come from talk. <br />
Needeless to say I was somewhat underprepared when Cory looked up from his phone and said "mom, what's a strap-on?" Trying to be much more nonchalant than I felt I described the device until he embarrassedly stopped me by saying "I get it mom, you can stop talking now." <br />
Luckily Cory has several close friends who tried their best to shut down teasing. <br />
Ms. L. later told me that several if the hockey academy guys did approach her privately and express concerns. She did her best to explain that Cory has the "brain of the boy, and a body of a girl." One leader within the academy was one such boy. According to Ms. L. he contemplated this slowly and thoughtfully. "I get it...I think" he said.<br />
A friend and I deliberated that if someone respected and liked supported Cory it would go a long way to preventing teasing and bullying.<br />
The other thing that ms. L. pointed out was the fact that Cory was such a great, well liked kid, it would be extremely hard to be mean to him. People were motivated to understand because they liked him so much. She was genuinely impressed at what a wonderful, brave, mature kid I had. The timing couldn't have been better. I needed to be reminded that no matter what Cory walked into the next day, he had the tools to deal with it. And the love and support of many people. <br />
The next day Cory returned to school. I waited until lunch to text him to find out how things were going. This required great restraint on my part I might add. <br />
Getting information out if a 14 year old boy is hard at the best of times<br />
"how's it going?"<br />
"good."<br />
"are people being cool?"<br />
"ya"<br />
"anything bad happen?"<br />
"no"<br />
"I love you"<br />
"you too"<br />
That's all I could get out of him until he got home.<br />
Apparently at an anti-bullying assembly the day before a bunch of the hockey academy guys sat in the back and sang the "transformers" theme song, but changed the lyrics to say "transgender". Cory heard about this and, unfamiliar with the song, asked what the lyrics were. Three guys looked at him like deer in the headlights, two scuttled away leaving one to defend himself. <br />
"uh, I don't really remember" he said. "I'm not mad. I just want to know what the song said"<br />
At that moment the hottest girl in the hockey academy walked up to the group and draped leaned on the poor guy stammering, his friends still lurking to see what he would finally say. Cory continued to ask about the seemingly creative teasing. A. (the gorgeous girl) catches on to the tension and moves to stand next to Cory.<br />
"Do we have a problem here?"<br />
"I just...I ..." he stammered<br />
"I said, do we have a problem here?!"she raised her voice a got in his face a bit clearly suggesting that it you mess with Cory you mess with her. <br />
Well that shut things down pretty completely. The girl every guy is dying to talk to, is Cory's most emphatic defender. This was the leader my friend and I were hoping would appear. Who knew she would be a blonde? <div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhXued-br4Tqx_iuyLFrP-cqCXPfskDwDtofunNGi8Bye-vFzuye4I-JfeGpyKePH_GTL_wvmjstksp5W-9e7nyZ4GdW3SXzvThhqO2ri_dlaBssQq6fCJ-N6W8qO2cTlk-mVbxXPLE9o/s640/blogger-image--1910809036.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhXued-br4Tqx_iuyLFrP-cqCXPfskDwDtofunNGi8Bye-vFzuye4I-JfeGpyKePH_GTL_wvmjstksp5W-9e7nyZ4GdW3SXzvThhqO2ri_dlaBssQq6fCJ-N6W8qO2cTlk-mVbxXPLE9o/s640/blogger-image--1910809036.jpg" /></a></div>nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-89076051117246074082012-03-10T11:32:00.001-08:002012-03-10T11:34:16.949-08:00Feeling lovedI am sorry for the long delay. Cory's transition has been going amazingly well. I will post part two this weekend. I think I've been maybe waiting for the shoe to drop, or something to not go well. Mothers worry I suppose. <br />
This note below was in Cory's locker when he returned to school on his first day as Cory after the whole school had been talking about him. If you can't read it, I says we support you and there is a big heart. Words can't even express you much this meant<div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjR6X22dBsncZPpRBWL6ogU2zRWXDqHmRtcxVZa1mDm-Nl51Y4GVqdz-00k6BmvIq5g_NOd8Rjd2b2FKKgFMcjwv0Hyw1I13USC966mqn72x44R9lEbPHqWK6v0RDnVSpgE7QD-MAErx14/s640/blogger-image--1155057034.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjR6X22dBsncZPpRBWL6ogU2zRWXDqHmRtcxVZa1mDm-Nl51Y4GVqdz-00k6BmvIq5g_NOd8Rjd2b2FKKgFMcjwv0Hyw1I13USC966mqn72x44R9lEbPHqWK6v0RDnVSpgE7QD-MAErx14/s640/blogger-image--1155057034.jpg" /></a></div>nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-77374794402033873242011-12-14T17:34:00.000-08:002011-12-14T21:32:40.610-08:00Becoming Cory - part one<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEix2oqsqpRUSgvggjhCx7ANKGD7Fh_5aDkoiLGe_8b_VpdCbdWukD9RgjhCWys_P3VBMgCacqCg9vgDvkNBe8LdopXzsADZ2mtHiSSUvZrpNHqNqIXgy_OX-LZnHqe1OwsP7wGT5jUV674/s1600/003.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEix2oqsqpRUSgvggjhCx7ANKGD7Fh_5aDkoiLGe_8b_VpdCbdWukD9RgjhCWys_P3VBMgCacqCg9vgDvkNBe8LdopXzsADZ2mtHiSSUvZrpNHqNqIXgy_OX-LZnHqe1OwsP7wGT5jUV674/s200/003.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5686221296355656530" /></a><br />Two weeks ago we had a huge week. Cory transitioned at his high school from Anneke to Cory. To do this we met with the Vancouver Board of Education’s Diversity and Anti-Homophobia worker Maria, to map out a plan. (Yes we have such position in our school board, and I am deeply grateful for that.) She has been like our personal 100 pound purple haired pit-bull, clearly stating that Cory’s transition will proceed smoothly, or they will have to deal with her. I have only really met with Maria twice, but I guarantee I would not want to be on the wrong end of her in any way. Her office was a non-descript, stereotypical beaurocrats cubicle that she transformed into her own personal pride float – a huge Rainbow flag hanging above her desk tops it all off. From the first moment I spoke with her on the phone I knew we would be in good hands.<br /><br />Next we met with Cory’s vice principle and school counsellor Dr. S and Ms. L. Ms. L is also the staff person for the school’s GSA (Gay Straight Alliance). Another thing I am hugely grateful for since I learned that some school boards are unsupportive of GSA’s in their schools. I had never met Dr. S. before our meeting but was amazed at his matter-of-fact, no bullshit way of approaching things.<br /><br />The plan would be that Cory stay home from school for two days and a Dr. S. and Ms. L would go to each of his classes and explain that when s/he returned to school s/he would no longer be Anneke, he would be Cory. He would be using the male washrooms, using male pronouns and (most controversially) using the male change room in the Hockey Academy. <br /><br />When we met Dr. S described the process of discussing Cory’s transition from female to male quite simply. He felt it would be a 5-8 minute conversation tops. With his thick South African accent and his non-nonsense attitude, he simply said, Cory is a young man in our school. We accept diversity; we accept Cory as a young man in our school and demand that everyone here at this school do the same. If they don’t like it they can leave. <strong>Period</strong>. Cory has told me, this is not a new speech for him and he frequently shows people the door or announces he has school transfer papers at the ready for any student who does not accept others and demonstrates respect and tolerance. <br /><br />Wow. I was gobsmacked really. He made it sound so simple.<br /><br />Cory nodded approvingly. Maria, Ms. L and I exchanged glances. Of course we all knew that it might not be so simple. Cory would be at risk of bullying, social isolation and/or physical violence. All of which have happened to other trans kids to varying degrees. I felt a bit like I was sending my kid into a lion’s den, and trusting virtual strangers to keep the lions at bay.<br />Luckily for us another brave boy forged the way in the Vancouver School board, and they had a template for what worked and what didn’t.<br /> (You can read about Cormack here http://www2.macleans.ca/2011/08/12/when-boys-would -rather-not-be-boys\)<br /><br />Well, last week Cory stayed home from school for two days and the classes were informed. A little primer was given on what it meant to be transgender, and then all of his classmates were informed that Anneke was transitioning and needed their support and understanding.<br /><br />I cannot imagine what it would be like to know that my entire high school was talking about me. As a shy, self-conscious teenager, I know I would have rather crawled into a hole and died. The word ‘brave’ just doesn’t seem to cut it.<br />Cory said from the start of the process that he couldn’t think about the reaction too much. He is already prone to anxiety. It was a wise self-realization. It was something he was going to do no matter what. This was a part of becoming Cory - being himself. This was not a choice. It was part of the journey.<br /><br />So I suppose, like pulling a Band-Aid off, or jumping in the pool, it was best to just do it. Transition done. No more roadblocks. No more cringing every time someone said <em>she</em>. The next day at school was a hockey day with ice time. Time for the boy’s dressing room in one of the most gendered sports ever known. Perhaps the down side of going stealth in Coquitlam would be he knows what a boy’s locker room is like when everyone is comfortable.<br /><br />When I asked Cory what the worst reaction would be, he simply stated “It would be if they said nothing. If no one talks to me.” My heart sank. I knew it could happen. And it could happen not because people didn’t understand or didn’t want to be kind. It would be simply because people didn’t know what to say. Awkward silence. I didn’t want to elaborate on any of the bad reactions I had swirling around in my head. I just tried to be positive and supportive.<br /> <br />“It’s going to be fine” I said, “Remember, you haven’t changed really at all. You are the same person. Your friends will all know that.”<br /><br />The next day Cory returned to school…...<br /><br />Reaction to follow.nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-56074903845783702022011-12-13T20:17:00.000-08:002011-12-13T20:31:37.454-08:0010 Things I Love about my Kids1. They are the empathetic and non-judgemental people…. The first ones to be friends with the new kid.<br /><br />2. They will eat almost anything. I have never had a problem with picky eaters. It getting them not to eat that is the challenge.<br /><br />3. They both enjoy watching and playing hockey. It has given them character and athleticism.<br /><br />4. They laugh at my jokes. I think they are the only people who think I’m funny.<br /><br />5. They understand my crazy job and my need for sleep, food and caffeine.<br /><br />6. They know when I’m grumpy and when to get me sleep, food or caffeine…without me even asking. Good survival instincts if you ask me.<br /><br />7. They haven’t inherited many of my body issues and walk around naked whenever possible. This applies mainly to Molly, who frequently reports “I am AWESOME!”<br /><br />8. They are resilient and adaptive. This year has involved many huge life changes. They have both handled it with grace and humour.<br /><br />9. They can fart and belch as though it were an Olympic sport.<br /><br />10. They love me back.nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-3784624006771200352011-11-24T19:04:00.001-08:002011-11-24T19:10:28.981-08:00Icing on the cakeIt's not only a huge accomplishment that Cory is playing boys hockey with the boys and excelling. The icing on the cake is when the team votes him most valuable player, awarding him the team helmet two games this month. <br />
He was embarrassed when I took this photo but I could tell he was proud. <div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeg-4m1DlJ4KqD6_PKwC82PeVBIFoINPRcPvzi8gd8u44-0BNuEs3Oks8I02KtI1MGyNPSRxu6KmyaKywVvMc7btw0LCTIq9hLC0zbLavDxZhexnuWnHapRwt9Cz-5Meyi90qq7KmdjPI/s640/blogger-image--350789620.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeg-4m1DlJ4KqD6_PKwC82PeVBIFoINPRcPvzi8gd8u44-0BNuEs3Oks8I02KtI1MGyNPSRxu6KmyaKywVvMc7btw0LCTIq9hLC0zbLavDxZhexnuWnHapRwt9Cz-5Meyi90qq7KmdjPI/s640/blogger-image--350789620.jpg" /></a></div>nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-57632883842533630262011-11-23T23:00:00.000-08:002012-03-11T18:36:29.578-07:00StealthStealth<br />
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The term stealth is used to refer to a person who passes as their desired gender at all times, and who has broken contact with everybody who knew their gender history. Thus, everybody around them is unaware that they were not always of the gender presented, and they are effectively invisible within the population of their current gender. In order to live in stealth,[6] an individual has to be extremely passable.<br />
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While Cory is not stealth in most of his life he has been stealth this year in boys hockey.<br />
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Last Friday was Cory's last game in his new hockey league. As I will detail in a future post we advocated fiercely for Cory to be considered male in his hockey association. It worked and he just finished his first season going stealth as a male player. A huge victory for Cory. It meant the world to him to be one of the guys and to make hockey history.<div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgAEHC37WBkObvZk6Kne_M1a9GTbLn54OrP8j6JQXWgPllNTU3_Jx5BJKrJkXv_88oDRCI4xMU_TRPdDd1JwdOHWVatzLETg2Cj7Ko7_vYQF8Tzpr0Cbg_sV7utTrqLS9UzfA3Wnd-JYdU/s640/blogger-image--498351761.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgAEHC37WBkObvZk6Kne_M1a9GTbLn54OrP8j6JQXWgPllNTU3_Jx5BJKrJkXv_88oDRCI4xMU_TRPdDd1JwdOHWVatzLETg2Cj7Ko7_vYQF8Tzpr0Cbg_sV7utTrqLS9UzfA3Wnd-JYdU/s640/blogger-image--498351761.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVTbX4TNrflZhyx80v5Dd1wLIT07b50FCsLliQtT5hQtGPgjf2NZkWCQg5weC7l-Y_1RVkHoFys7wXnvjuRuIJyI-wRnnVO44g1y2E7N9KkI1W-bvuOLVvN2sybjMMasyN-Vu913Gfmkc/s640/blogger-image-723395604.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVTbX4TNrflZhyx80v5Dd1wLIT07b50FCsLliQtT5hQtGPgjf2NZkWCQg5weC7l-Y_1RVkHoFys7wXnvjuRuIJyI-wRnnVO44g1y2E7N9KkI1W-bvuOLVvN2sybjMMasyN-Vu913Gfmkc/s640/blogger-image-723395604.jpg" /></a></div>nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-83301298882518187512011-11-23T22:11:00.000-08:002011-11-23T22:33:53.921-08:00It's a boy!!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgrJhAKHwSlZB5XG_U3eI5brtowurTjycjcPEZN0_lWHGBPr6DKbCOonlTCXOFnkTxXV5ExzxhrBGyhIG1fmjnt36fdQyXdzXu-FJokfhb8QNQZ1qJbVzosQwpyOwK0DIhRy-sujtZ6Y4/s1600/294.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgrJhAKHwSlZB5XG_U3eI5brtowurTjycjcPEZN0_lWHGBPr6DKbCOonlTCXOFnkTxXV5ExzxhrBGyhIG1fmjnt36fdQyXdzXu-FJokfhb8QNQZ1qJbVzosQwpyOwK0DIhRy-sujtZ6Y4/s320/294.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5678446091560419138" /></a><br /><br /><br />Well folks. After a long break from blogging, I am happy to report Anneke and I are back to writing. We have a lot of catching up to do, so hopefully the next few weeks will be full of updates that will string the past year together.<br /><br />The biggest news.....A. has decided to transition to be male. <br />S/he struggled with this for a while. Being gender fluid for so long s/he really wanted to be considered female but be allowed to take testosterone and have the body he wants. Seems this is so off the grid, our endocrinologist would not approve.<br /><br />A.'s new name is Cory. It suits him. It's a great name.<br />Funnily enough it was not on our shortlist of names when we were expecting him almost 15 years ago. Thank you to Cory Schnieder for the inspiration. ;)<br /><br />The long break from blogging was at Cory's request as he figured out what he wanted to do. Seems the main consideration was hockey. Switching from girls hockey to boys hockey is no small feat. In doing so, he has made history and his dreams of playing in the NHL are alive and well.<br /><br />Cory has been on testosterone now for 6 weeks. He has grown over 2 inches, his voice is changing, and he is even growing a bit of a movember stach.<br /><br />I have a son .... an amazing, brave, wonderful son, who is an inspiration and promises to change the world.nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1072969826281021332.post-87013485602585852012010-05-25T10:41:00.000-07:002010-05-25T14:17:35.865-07:00Meet Adam<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJYbws7J9MgG5c5bjNn1Z457PDOP8hedNS4U_TZpp_s3qqjMBpCidH-dRRrlz94x_Cto2j7bnhl_IPmwEcLTnQ8g1ljmNd6CK8KidClgbOwtBig4ROKDWKOH3gFOcB6JFcMFVR0Z9la5A/s1600/photo-Molly.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJYbws7J9MgG5c5bjNn1Z457PDOP8hedNS4U_TZpp_s3qqjMBpCidH-dRRrlz94x_Cto2j7bnhl_IPmwEcLTnQ8g1ljmNd6CK8KidClgbOwtBig4ROKDWKOH3gFOcB6JFcMFVR0Z9la5A/s320/photo-Molly.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5475292401529856066" /></a><br />This past weekend we went to Bellingham to go shopping. Much to Molly's delight the mall we went to contained a Build-a-Bear workshop. For those of you not in the know, Build-a-Bear is heaven for any girl (or boy) who would like to pick, stuff, then dress their own personal bear. You get a little heart, which you warm with your own love, then place it in your bear before you stuff it. Then you shop for outfits and accesssories. Needless to say, Molly <strong>loves </strong>Build-a-Bear. I have lost count how many bears she has. <br /><br />Once you 'build' your bear you get to shop for outfits and accessories, then register you new bear in the computer, where a birth certificate is created. To off-set the perceived unfairness of Anneke getting a new suit, and me some new clothes, I permitted Molly to go a bit crazy with new outfits for her bears. <br /><br />At the checkout we learned that the clothes would be 20% off if we purchased a new bear. Not my plan, but ok. Molly picked a "boy" bear and named him Adam.<br />As we were waiting in the couch area for Anneke to pick up her suit she began to admire her new outfits and dress her new bear. <br /><br />"Look mommy, does this look nice?" she showed me the above bikini clad bear.<br />"That's a bikini. It looks pretty, but I thought you wanted Adam to be a boy bear?"<br />"He is a boy, mom, he's trans-gendered. He likes to wear girls clothes. Does he look pretty? Do you like it?"<br />"Looks great sweetie, can I take a picture?" Secretly tickeled by how gender-bending my youngest child has become.<br />"Sure, why?"<br />"I don't know, I just think its cute you have a transgendered bear."<br />"Ok" she shrugged, and proceeded to try on all her new outfits on Adam, likely "Build-a-bear"'s first transgendered bear.nicolehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06703157066332457695noreply@blogger.com11